I am hurt.
I feel like everybody I let into my life recently takes advantage of me, uses me in some way.
and I hate it.
I feel sick.
I feel like curling up in my bed. But I don't want to be alone.
I want somebody to show up, bring me ice cream and not care that I'm fat.
The only problem is,
I don't have anybody I want to be not alone with.
And that feeling sucks.
Maybe I will just move far, far away.
Perhaps to Logan so I can see Ashley more.
Or perhaps to Oregon. Maybe I'll find that I don't love the sun as much as I think I do and that the rain suits me.
It really doesn't matter. The point is: I need a change. and I need it fast.