I learned several valuable life lessons over this past weekend, so I thought I'd share the wealth of knowledge I gained with you.
I can not bowl.
Really. I bowled a 40. In one game. A FORTY.
You may be asking yourself how this information is important. It's really not relevant to anybody's life but my own, actually. But perhaps it will help you in some small way feel better about yourself, because, let's be honest: nobody can suck at bowling worse than me. I also learned that I'm ok with failing. Maybe that's a huge character flaw, and I should be trying to improve when I fail miserably, but whatever. You can't win 'em all.
Eternal Marriage lessons in church don't bother me anymore.
This is huge.
Ever since my ex husband left, I haven't been able to sit through a lesson on marriage. It stings. It makes tears come out of my face. I generally have to leave, or bite my tongue to hold back from making some cynical comment. (Let's be honest, I have to bite my tongue during ANY lesson.)
When they announced that eternal marriage was the topic in Relief Society on Sunday, I immediately texted my best friend a text of rage (in all caps, mind you) about how stupid this topic is.
But I made it. I didn't feel anger. I didn't feel pain. The only time I wanted to punch somebody in the face was when a girl commented that the only reason for divorce is infidelity.
After the lesson, somebody asked me about my failed marriage and this was my answer:
I do not regret marrying my ex husband. I don't think that it was the wrong thing to do. I have always believed that two people can, and should, work things out to the best of their ability. I was willing to do that, and wanted to stay married. But the truth that I realized during the lesson was that, no matter the time, place, or person, the bottom line is that each of you have free agency. And in my situation, my ex husband did what he thought was right and used his free agency to leave.
But for the first time since the divorce, I realized this, and realized that I will be ok. And I am happy.
Single life is fun.
Seriously, maybe it's the new group of friends I've gotten myself into, or maybe it's just that I'm resurrecting the awesomeness in me that I lost for a while, but I am having a blast. And I'm realizing that even though loneliness sometimes hits me, I gots to make the best of what I have. And right now that's a whole lot of free time to do whatever I want. Word to your mother. (I just wanted to say that...)
The funny thing is, most of my friends in the group are married-which just reassures me that when I get married again, life doesn't have to cease being fun. (When I was married, it was all TV and movies.) Note to self: Marry somebody as crazy as me.
And there you have it, folks.
I'm quite delighted that the quality of my life is improving as my attitude does.